Laptop Poem #1
A frantic writing when i felt extremely overwhelmed in a hotel in a strange place.
5/14/23
A name as one could ever be
you never fully close your eyes
always letting a peak through
not comfortable with being alone
i guess no one is
when i stand outside i always look up and i let the universe become
its a person to me in some way
like i imagine a god in religions
i ask it questions because i know ill get no answer
the moon like a pale eye looks at me with sorrow
it almost seems to understand the pain im pouring out
it tries to comfort me by having the breeze caress the fibers of my soul
in times like these you really have to lay down
the ground welcomes you, says why not stay a while
if not now youll do it later
its comforting in a sense
you can fall and always know itll eventually be the ground
do you ever think about falling?
i dont that often but i do fear drowning
not water, water is love and life and joy and the look on your face
when you finish reading this and know im still alive and okay
and we can sing and dance and cry about every moment apart that was too
painful to bear alone
“×× ×™ ×ž× ×¡×” לומר ש×× ×™ טובע”
why cant i just say what i mean
i can hide behind metaphor and imagery
but i do feel things underneath and no one will stop me
from saying them except
I dont drown in water
i look around me and see the room filling with emotions i cant handle
faces i cant bear to see see me seeing me
do you?
do you see me?
I barely try to see myself
a mirror is a vicious device and let me tell you
nevermind
who cares i dont i look fine i dont care about eyes
look all you want exposure? who cares
im here and real and i love
i love so much sometimes i can only look and muster no words
because what words in this language could possible portray whats happening
can you do it?
if i ask you would you please
pull me close and describe everything
I’m gonna be here a long time don’t worry
I want to hear every word.